RAINY DAY BLUES

so today it is raining, 20M have no electricity, and i am using the adsl of my friend in his flat. i am feeling kind of down today. i feel like it is getting close to the time of my leaving and this makes me sad. i have had a really amazing time here in turkey, found some persons that i really fall in love with, and i hope to come again in december. soon it will be time to go back to paris, make my exhibition, get an agency, and see what work i can do more there. then come big life decisions, like, stay in paris, dont stay in paris, move to new york, dont move to new york. move to istanbul, dont move to istanbul. how can anyone ever know what to do with the life? my heart is really being squeezed into a knot.

so i will luckily stick my head back in my computer and not think about any of this. i will stay in the present moment, so i can savor every last minute of my time here.

friday i will have a big dinner at the model flat and after the dinner, everyone has agreed to let me record a focus group for my exhibition. this way my exhibition becomes more than just me, me, me, and instead becomes the voice of all of us. which makes me really happy.

ok...back to getting my head into some code. my heart hurts.

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- posted by anina @ 1:01 PM